User: cakewielder is back, this time bringing Deco-sama’s song on the table, who is also one of my favourite vocaloid producers! Oh and also, I’m not gonna translate the lyrics to Indonesian–I’ll be re-writing the existing English lyrics (which I got from animelyrics.com) and add further…”drama” to it, in my own style of course. I really like the theme presented in the song and I just wished I could explore it more and add more context to the story. I plan to add the Indonesian lyrics some time in the future, though. Alas, enjoy!
“Nobody else has made me cried this much,”
In an instance, I felt that he’s grown so distant from me.
“But I’m fine living like this,” was all you could say, trying to comfort me with a chuckle–
An insincere one. That doesn’t feel right. Where’s the happiness in it?
It seemed impossible to continue when things had gone this far.
The “me” who was always talking, always leading, always strong-willed
Living with an attitude that’s bound to backfire.
Now I know it’s true, to have witnessed the tears of someone who’s been keeping everything to himself.
Once again, I broke the heart of a strong person.
It seemed impossible, but shouldn’t things go back to the way it was by now?
Time passed, yet we continued shooting words that we didn’t mean.
I wanted to save you, save us, I really did.
But why are you making things so hard for me?
Why can’t you let me stand up for myself?
So I could reach for you and lift you up from above.
But honestly, I’m scared.
That I might instead fall with you
Deeper and deeper, drowning in love
That eventually turned ambiguous
Stranded too far from the surface
Continue to exist in strangulation,
What’s the right thing to say?
Said a person who’s been talking too much with her head in the clouds…
You who were always keeping his head above water
Whenever I was around,
Now drowning in the lake of sadness I put you through
I struggled, trying to reach for you from the lakeside
And for a moment, the water turned calm
The reflection it showed was of a normal person with no gills
Followed by the ripples that grew stronger the more I forced myself to swim through
I couldn’t think of anything else but to escape from the scene…
“I’m so sorry for everything,”
“The sooner the better,”
Is this my way to say I’ve given up?
I tried not to look back as I left you on your own.
An ultimate selfishness packed in a simple, meaningless good-bye…
There’s no way I could be more disappointing as a human being,
But then again, I couldn’t hear you over the stream of tears…
Even if I was physically moving,
My mind did not.
Then came the picture of “us”
And I was reminded by our smiles and laughter
That seemed to have dragged me back to my senses.
Maybe it was never impossible to go back after all.
There’s no stopping me, this breath of mine, the remains of our love residing within me
Let me use all that I’ve got to save you.
I wanted to see you, I wanted to hold you…
And so I ran back to where exactly I left you–
Is it just me or I couldn’t see the floor of the lake anymore?
As I dipped my feet into the cold water, I could feel your presence
Were you still holding your breath, with tears spilling from your eyes?
Please hold it a little longer for me!
Through and forth towards the end,
I held my breath and I could see the memories
Emerging like bubbles, from the days we were
Was it real? Is this an act of love?
Even with my vision blurring
Until it came to a point where I just had to shut
And embrace your tears, drinking them all up
I’ve never felt so alive.
I was not familiar with this taste, but I could live through it
In exchange for your happiness…
An elegy of us, a kiss underwater to save you.
You can open your eyes now, and believe the storm had subsided.